Friday, June 18, 2010


Finally, some new news! Okay, so basically it started yesterday when I decided to try sending Anna a text message. Here are the contents:

Hay Anna! It's me! Nick! Bate! Or Stoutzenberger! Whichever! But yeah, it's been a while so I was wondering if you'd wanna talk or whatever. I mean, not much has changed with me other than I started listening to new bands. JOJ, Scarling., RBF, you know. Read the other two books you told me to, too. Loved 'em. Also been playing a lot of Pokémon and FF7 (you should play the PC version), painting my aunt's apartments (for money!), etc. Plus I'm less annoying, so YEAH. I'm curious as to how you've been doing, so I guess gimme a holler. See ya! (wait why did i say that when this is a text and not live)

Okay. Now I want you to notice something. There is absolutely NOTHING sexual or even romantic in it, right? The whole thing was all chillax like "hay what's up man". I did this on purpose, hoping maybe, like, it'd bring back memories of back when we were still friends? Well anyway. A few minutes ago, this happened (the other person is Kate again):

[18:09] Miles Edgeworth: Never, I repeat, NEVER text Anna again or I swear to god I will chop your balls off and feed them to you.
[18:10] Miles Edgeworth: Mkay?
[18:10] Nick: wha?
[18:10] Miles Edgeworth: You heard me. Or are you illiterate now?
[18:10] Nick: No, I'm literate, but... why can't I text her? o.O
[18:12] Miles Edgeworth: Because she doesn't want you to. It upsets her. If you really want to say something to her, say it to me and I'll tell her.
[18:12] Nick: I didn't even say anything bad.
[18:12] Miles Edgeworth: I know, but she doesn't like to hear from you. You creep her out. Possibly because you posted private info about her on your site.
[18:12] Nick: Literally the whole thing was all chillax like "hay what's up"
[18:13] Nick: ...what
[18:13] Miles Edgeworth: I understand that, but when someone hates you, you don't write to them saying 'hay what's up'.
[18:13] Miles Edgeworth: And trying to do so will not make her like you.
[18:14] Nick: Then what on earth WILL?
[18:14] Miles Edgeworth: Nothing. Absolutely nothing. She will hate you until the day she dies, and nothing you do or say will ever change that. Every time you try, she just hates you all the more for it.
[18:15] Nick: Ahh, no.
[18:15] Miles Edgeworth: Ahh, yes. Seriously. Listen very, very closely.
[18:16] Miles Edgeworth: She hates you so much, she wants to kill you. In a painful manner.
[18:16] Miles Edgeworth: Ok?
[18:16] Nick: I'm aware of this.
[18:16] Miles Edgeworth: And the only thing that will change it is if you back the fuck off.
[18:16] Nick: I don't... think you realize that people can change their minds about such things.
[18:17] Miles Edgeworth: As a Canadian, it makes me want o slam your fingers in the trunk of a car every time you say about.
[18:17] Miles Edgeworth: *to
[18:17] Nick: Why? Canadians don't even say about.
[18:18] Miles Edgeworth: And I do realize that. But you have done so much to antagonize yourself, any further attempts to make her change her mind will only further drive her away.
[18:18] Miles Edgeworth: Do you understand that?
[18:18] Nick: Okay, but if I DON'T make attempts, she probably won't drive back TOWARDS me, soooo...
[18:19] Miles Edgeworth: So you should leave her alone. Would you rather have her hate you even more than she does now?
[18:19] Miles Edgeworth: Come on, Nick, use your head.
[18:20] Nick: ...But if I leave her alone she won't love me.
[18:20] Miles Edgeworth: I know you've got one in there.
[18:20] Miles Edgeworth: If you continue t contact her, she won't love you.
[18:20] Miles Edgeworth: *to
[18:20] Nick: See, now you're just confusing things!
[18:20] Miles Edgeworth: But that's the way it is!! No matter what you do, she will not love you.
[18:21] Nick: Sure she will!
[18:21] Miles Edgeworth: Oh my god.
[18:21] Miles Edgeworth: What makes you believe that?
[18:21] Miles Edgeworth: What sane, rational part of your brain could ever make you think that?
[18:22] Nick: Um, because we're soul mates? Pretty sure I explained this multiple times before.
[18:23] Miles Edgeworth: Yes, but you're not soul mates. You can't be soul mates if one soul hates the other and if the other soul harasses the other to the point where she wants to kill you.
[18:23] Nick: Yeah but somehow she's going to STOP hating me and start loving me. So yeah, soul mates.
[18:24] Nick: p.s. I'm not harrassing her
[18:24] Miles Edgeworth: You know
[18:24] Miles Edgeworth: I think you might be a troll.
[18:24] Nick: Why would I be trolling the same person for five years?
[18:25] Miles Edgeworth: YOU SEE
[18:25] Miles Edgeworth: 5 YEARS
[18:25] Miles Edgeworth: SHE STILL HATES YOU
[18:25] Nick: Yes, because she's stubborn
[18:25] Miles Edgeworth: Also, what on earth do you have to offer her?
[18:25] Miles Edgeworth: You're ugly as sin, flabby, unintelligent and delusional.
[18:26] Nick: Safety. Wisdom. Love. Anilingus. Pretty much everything, really.
[18:26] Nick: And you know, love goes beyond superficila shit like appearances and personality traits
[18:26] Nick: *superficial
[18:27] Miles Edgeworth: 1. You're the biggest threat in her life. Her parents have gone to the police and are concerned for her safety. If you go near her, they, being the feircely protective people they are, will never let you marry.
2. What wisdom? You're extremely stupid.
3. No comment, because this isn't love. It's obsession.
4. She's not into it.
[18:28] Nick: 1. When Anna loves me she'll call that off
2. Intelligence and wisdom aren't the same thing
4. maybe she will be in the future, son
[18:29] Miles Edgeworth: If you call me son again I'll rip your tongue out.
[18:29] Nick: What? I call EVERYONE son. And dawg. And dude. And nudist. And countless other pronouns.
[18:30] Miles Edgeworth: And they'll never call it off, because they know what's best for her.
[18:30] Nick: obviously they don't if they don't want me to marry her
[18:30] Nick: I AM what's best for her. :/
[18:31] Miles Edgeworth: But you don't even know how to look after yourself, Nick. Anna is an extremely difficult person. I don't think for one minute you could handle it.
[18:31] Nick: I can. I know Anna better than I know myself. I know how to handle her problems and stuff
[18:32] Miles Edgeworth: Like what?
[18:32] Miles Edgeworth: Explain.
[18:32] Miles Edgeworth: Demonstrate.
[18:32] Nick: What, you expect me to come up with an example off the top of my head?
[18:32] Nick: fffffffff
[18:32] Miles Edgeworth: Yes, since you know so much about her.
[18:32] Miles Edgeworth: You are, after all, the Anna Guru.
[18:33] Nick: fffff I dunno it depends on whatever her problem is at the time
[18:33] Nick: p.s. using this moniker now
[18:33] Miles Edgeworth: You're her biggest problem.
[18:33] Nick: Only because she's MAKING me into a problem.
[18:33] Miles Edgeworth: You both are.
[18:33] Nick: I'm only trying to help her and she's being all, well, bitchy
[18:34] Miles Edgeworth: Admittedly, she's not handling it very well.
[18:34] Miles Edgeworth: But what would you expect?
[18:34] Nick: ^ understatement
[18:34] Nick: Uh, I would expect her to at least give me a chance and see how things work out?
[18:34] Nick: I don't see how that's so much to ask
[18:34] Miles Edgeworth: Good luck to you on that.
[18:34] Nick: Meh
[18:35] Miles Edgeworth: But it kinda is too much to ask.
[18:35] Nick: I don't need luck. It'll happen anyway.
[18:35] Miles Edgeworth: You've scared her away.
[18:35] Nick: How do you figure?
[18:35] Miles Edgeworth: She's told me so.
[18:35] Nick: Wh- nono, I meant back BEFORE she started doing this
[18:35] Nick: like, when we were friends
[18:36] Miles Edgeworth: Well, you started getting really creepy.
[18:36] Miles Edgeworth: And you decided that you were in love with her.
[18:36] Miles Edgeworth: This, understandably, scared her off.
[18:36] Nick: Uh, because I AM in love with her?
[18:36] Miles Edgeworth: brb
[18:36] Nick: what was I SUPPOSED to do, just not tell her? :/
[18:40] Miles Edgeworth: No, it's fine that you told her.
[18:41] Miles Edgeworth: But after that, you should've respected her boundaries.
[18:41] Miles Edgeworth: That's what love is about. Respect.
[18:43] Nick: How did I not respect her?
[18:44] Miles Edgeworth: You continue to try to pressure her into a relationship and write disturbing fanfics about her poop. :c
[18:45] Nick: There's nothing wrong with writing fanfics. She herself does it all the time. B|
[18:45] Nick: And I didn't even pressure her, either
[18:45] Miles Edgeworth: Yes, but not about people she knows. And not in a creepy sexual manner.
[18:45] Miles Edgeworth: See, that's the main thing.
[18:45] Nick: All I did was ASK if she wanted to go out with me :/
[18:45] Miles Edgeworth: You're creepy as fuck.
[18:45] Nick: No I'm not.
[18:46] Miles Edgeworth: That's the other thing.
[18:46] Miles Edgeworth: You have no idea how creepy you are.
[18:46] Nick: There's nothing creepy about me. Not in the least.
[18:46] Miles Edgeworth: It's unanimous that you're really, really creepy.
[18:47] Nick: So Anna's friends make up the ENTIRE vote then? Pfft.
[18:47] Nick: People who actually KNOW me know I'm not creepy.
[18:48] Miles Edgeworth: Dude.
[18:49] Miles Edgeworth: Jessa the doormat can't stand you.
[18:49] Miles Edgeworth: Jessa likes EVERYONE.
[18:49] Miles Edgeworth: She's just that nice.
[18:49] Nick: She USED to like me. I'm not sure what the hell happened with her
[18:49] Miles Edgeworth: Oh, I know.
[18:50] Miles Edgeworth: She only ever talked to you because she pitied you.
[18:50] Miles Edgeworth: She told me.
[18:50] Nick: ...Umm she was friends with me before I even told her about Anna
[18:50] Miles Edgeworth: Yes, and she pitied you even then.
[18:51] Miles Edgeworth: She tends to be friends with people she pities.
[18:51] Nick: What the fuck would she have pitied me for before I told her about Anna? -_-
[18:51] Miles Edgeworth: I'm not sure if Anna and I are included in this spectrum.
[18:52] Miles Edgeworth: And read your own life story.
[18:52] Miles Edgeworth: It's all on your stupid fuckng websites.
[18:52] Nick: Dude, I KNOW Jessa and she didn't just pity me. I used to be one of her closest friends until Anna had to go and ruin it
[18:52] Miles Edgeworth: You seem to hold a lot of resentment towards Anna.
[18:52] Nick: Uh what does my biography have to do with anything
[18:53] Miles Edgeworth: To be honest, it doesn't even seem like you like her.
[18:53] Nick: Well of course. She's made the past two years of my life hell
[18:53] Miles Edgeworth: And it says that you grew up in an abusive home, shitty family situation, no friends.
[18:53] Nick: Actually no, even before she she started hating me
[18:53] Nick: Yeah, your point being?
[18:53] Miles Edgeworth: She pitied you.
[18:54] Nick: She didn't know THAT stuff either!
[18:54] Miles Edgeworth: And dude, if you don't want Anna to keep ruining your life, leave her alone.
[18:54] Miles Edgeworth: It's that simple.
[18:54] Nick: If I left her alone it wouldn't fix my life.
[18:54] Nick: The only thing that can fix it is if she loves me
[18:55] Miles Edgeworth: You're very stupid.
[18:55] Nick: Irrelevant.
[18:56] Miles Edgeworth: No, it's verr relevant.
[18:56] Miles Edgeworth: *very
[18:57] Nick: No, it's a moot point.
[18:57] Miles Edgeworth: Because you still believe she will someday love you.
[18:57] Miles Edgeworth: You are just that stupid.
[18:57] Nick: Because she WILL!
[18:57] Nick: It has nothing to do with intelligence or stupidity/
[18:57] Nick: It's just the truth
[18:59] Miles Edgeworth: I give up.

So yeah. I guess this means she's not gonna text me back quite yet.

EDIT: Also, I was semi-joking aboot the anilingus. SEMI.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010


So... even though I love Anna, sometimes I also develop side-crushes on other people, too. It's probably a bad idea to go out with someone while Anna's the only thing on my mind, but I can't really help it. Plus it's not like anyone would want to go out with me anyway. But yeah.

It's just... it really sucks being alone like this, especially when I'm constantly forced to watch/listen to other couples' happiness, and sometimes I wish I could have, like, a temporary girlfriend. Just until Anna loves me. But then I quickly realize that that would be really cruel to the other girl. I mean, I know there's a such thing as friends with benefits, but that's not really what I'm talking aboot. I don't really care all that much aboot sex (surprise!), I just... wish I had someone to do little romantic things with, like cuddling or just talking or whatever.

I dunno. Whatever. I guess my patience will pay off? Maybe? Except I'm really, really impatient. So yeah.

EDIT: Unrelated, I just realized that maybe Anna SHOULDN'T know aboot this, lest she have it shut down like the Facebook group. Hm. :s

Thursday, March 25, 2010


Nothing really new's going on, but I wanted to make a post anyway.

Apparently Anna had a cold or something, but as far as I know she's okay now.

Thursday, February 18, 2010


Yeah, yeah. I know. Half the time when I'm negative I seem emo, and the other half when I'm positive I come off as creepy and the bad kind of insane. Welp, prepare for the latter.

Recently I've been feelin' pretty good. It may have something to do with me taking an interest in Catholicism the other day. Looked up incorruptibility (pretty cool) and infallibility of the church, and other cool Catholic stuff like that. Of course, as far as I know I'm Protestant, but that doesn't stop me from using Catholic principles that make sense to me, does it?

Well anyway, after doing this, I've felt less emo and stuff. More confident, even. Not in the bad vain way, though. But yeah. I also kinda get this vibe that maybe God's rewarding me for being extra religious lately by aiding me in my quest for Anna's love or something. I dunno. Maybe. But yeah!

Also, happy birthday Anna! (She's 17 today.) <3

Saturday, February 13, 2010

V-Day and a B-day

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day... yet another time I should be spending by pampering Anna, but of course life's cheated me out of that, hasn't it? Plus, her birthday is on the 18th... She's gonna be 17. Missing her birthday is even worse than missing V-Day... Sigh...

I know, I know. I'm trying to stay optimistic and all, but still... it really sucks having to miss all these special events. ;_;

In unrelated news, I really really wanna have a baby. But that's nothing new.

Monday, January 4, 2010

I literally lived the lyrics to 'Blue Christmas'

Indeed, it was a blue, blue Christmas without her. I couldn't stop myself from thinking... you're supposed to hang out with loved ones for Christmas, right? So many people take it for granted, thinking "oh hey, that's easy, loved ones are the one thing you always have". But no. Not so easy for some.

Anna is the one thing I really, truly need (not that I'm calling her a thing) but like... I don't have her. It shouldn't be this hard, ya know? If only I could just, like, cuddle with her, and just talk or something simple like that it would be the perfect Christmas in my eyes. But no. I can't even get that much. :(

I guess I'm okay now though. I'ma keep on truckin'. Perseverance! I don't care if it sounds creepy or not, I know I'll get her someday.